After the storm
Firmly believe now that the strength of a ship will be proven after a storm hits. It may sink, or it may keep intact and even becoming stronger afterward.
The proof that we have the second kind of ship is what I am really grateful of. Holes and damages might appear over here and there, but I believe, together, we can fix them, and even use them as lessons and guidance for stepping forward to the future. Together.
— the keys are communication, honesty and trust –
it is going to be tough …
The fact is that it HAPPENED … and whatever one’s do, it can not be erased or changed.
The fact is that it HURTS … and the hardest part is the possibility that it might dramatically change my point of view, for good (though I am fully aware that this would not be what my conscience wants)
The only things that could be done are:
…ACCEPTING that it happened.
…UNDERSTANDING and FORGIVING (* but no, forgetting, as if in “running away” is not the best option here *) so that the pain would — hopefully — eventually fade away.
…TAKING LESSONS so that the same mistakes can be avoided in the future.
Still, it is going to be TOUGH. VERY TOUGH. Even tougher, considering this is not — in any circumstances — something to be shared with others.
But may the final outcome be the best for all of us.
* searching for helps and guidance from the Almighty, and from the one who I fully put my trust into *
— In the midst of the dusk. For the first time in years that I failed to shut out my mind.
— Thank you for letting me know. As painful as that is, I still believe that honesty and trust is what should be put over anything else.
Grateful
In the end, I consider that this is share-able here 
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Be grateful of anything that has happened to me for the last one year.
- For having a chance to know you. Either you realized it or not, ever since that day (and also before that), you are the driving force that keep me hanging on and moving forward — insya Allah — on the right track. You may not be able to imagine how much you meant to me. Thank you.
- For having a chance to do my research here, restraining my brain to the limit — often :-p –, making me familiar with this, searching pile of papers, and then read them with half-closed eye
(they’re good to be used as lullaby 
), but this is what I want to do, and I am (still :-p) enjoying it. - For having such a wonderful community here, and here. I learned a lot from you all. If somehow I become a better person, it must be because of the lessons you all were teaching me.
And now, let another year comes .
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